Slow & Steady wins the race

Hi everyone! Today I am tired. Energy has been low and I have been pushing to check things off of my to do list. Plus, it’s summer and the kids are home. I think they are enjoying their staycation because I have been doing my best to incorporate something fun into every day. Weekends are also busy due to Tropsical which I am grateful for. 

There have been a lot of deaths these past two years and I feel like everyone is going through it. Grief is pretty heavy to carry especially in addition to all of our “regular” day to day struggles. Financially, people are also feeling a pinch and it can be frustrating. There have been a lot of discussions around mental health  and specifically depression which is great. If you can afford it, definitely see a therapist or other professional you feel safe with. 

I have blogged about intentionality a lot so I don’t want to go too much into it in this post but I think it is important that you regularly check in with yourself. I believe we get caught up and forget that the ups and downs of life have no set timeframe. You could be good today, down tomorrow and back up again the next day or each phase may last a little longer. I started this post saying I am tired. And I am. I have been incorporating pockets of rest into my weeks but I really think I am at the point where I just need to pick a day and stay in bed all day. We are all juggling different hats and it is important that we make time to rest and reset. You aren’t able to do your best work if you aren’t at your best. 

Once you are aware of how your feeling physical, you can start to check your emotions and mental health. When you’re tired physically, it puts a strain on everything else and vice versa hence the reason we should be striving for balance. We drive ourselves crazy worrying about things we have no control over. The “what if’s” keep snowballing and suddenly we can feel like we are in over our heads. It is even more portably then to rest. Give your mind a break. You can think better and find solutions with a clear mind and not one running at 100 mph. Life can be difficult but you are equipped to over the obstacles. Let me add that having the right friends can help as well. I had a conversation with a friend the other day and it just made me realize I wasn’t the only one in that situation. Entrepreneurship will kick your butt and it takes a long time before you can reap all of the benefits. But while you wait on the financial gain, you can enjoy the freedom of setting your own schedule. Set some time apart for you. 

Remember your why. Remember why you started. Be sure to pick something you like to do because when things get tough, it’s that joy that will see you through. As tired as I can be, I really enjoy making my popsicles and seeing others enjoy them. Stay focused on your goals and take them one step at a time. Don’t worry about how you are going to reach the finish line, focus on getting the next task done and done well.  I know it is also easy to look at others and think they have it better but most times they don’t. Don’t allow room for constant comparison. Comparison is still the thief of joy. Instead of being proud of your accomplishments, you will have yourself feeling down because you didn’t accomplish something that wasn’t even for you to accomplish. It is ok to feel down sometimes but question those emotions to see if they are based on fact or fiction. If it turns out you can go a little harder, don’t beat yourself up. Get out of your own way and do what you gotta do. 

You can keep living the same life year in and year out or you can challenge yourself to reach for your dreams. You are worthy of more, you are worthy of accomplishing your dreams and you are worthy of being happy. So when the rollercoaster of life dips, know that propulsion is coming and use that to get where you want to be. I get like I had the world on my shoulders this week but I got honest with myself, saw where I could improve and reminded myself where I don’t want to be. So I will be taking some rest soon but then it’s back to the race. It is so very important to check in with yourself. When you’re tired and run down, you will be more willing to compromise and that’s ok sometimes but if we are constantly compromising what we want then we can end up in a cycle that isn’t easy to get out of. This week, take a pen and paper and take stock of your life and do what needs to be done. Even if all that needs to be done is to take some rest. 

Taking a moment at one of my fav places to gather myself

Consider it pure joy

Happy Tuesday! Yes it is Tuesday and yes you are getting a blog. Back on track with my Tuesday posts. Small round of applause for me!

The past two weeks have been a whirlwind. First, I misplaced my phone and when I findit, it was on the ground and the screen was cracked. At this point I think I just need a phone with an armored case. It was working for a day or two then stopped. I finally got a replacement phone yesterday after two weeks. Two weeks with no whatsapp. The day after, I found out my great aunt passed away. She was very close to the family and it was a tough loss. After that, it simply felt like I was wading through mud every day. I was getting things done but it felt like it was taking forever. The funeral was the following week on Thursday July 1st. And my busiest weekend for Tropsical was that weekend.

Now the week of the 21st-27th, our local electrical company lost power a few times. I had a pretty sizable inventory of pops in the freezer. I lost over 300 Popsicles. I then focused on restocking and even changed how I organized the freezer. So the weekend leading up to the funeral, I was busy daily producing Popsicles. Friday night, electricity goes again. Thankfully, I didn’t lose any pops then. Saturday something told me to move half of the pops necessary for the second event. I ended up losing 200 Popsicles Saturday afternoon. I rush to make a new batch in time for the event. With ten minutes left before they are ready, electricity goes again. When I started the business, I shed some blood during my setup and I feel like I sweat every time I make my pops. At this point, I can officially say Tropsical has gotten my tears. It is by the grace of God that I made it to the wedding.

I survived the weekend madness although ultimately I could not make it to the event on Sunday. Sometimes you need to know your limits and when you are physically and emotionally drained, the right thing to do is take a break. Although it wasn’t really a break because my son had his graduation on Sunday. This weekend tested me and there were a few times I wanted to call friends for support but I realized I would only be looking for sympathy. I was already doing all that could be done in the moment so there wasn’t much help anyone could provide.

This weekend taught me to trust God and myself. God will guide us if we listen. The solutions to my problems came to me in little whispers and had I been focused on the problem, I wouldn’t have found the solution. At one point, I posted a scripture which I will post below. I persevered and trusted my ability to provide the service requested. I didn’t get hung up on what went wrong but focused on solutions and came up with a plan to avoid the same thing from happening again. A lot of times we see the success stories but don’t know what it took to get there. I am sharing this so someone else who is struggling can know that it isn’t always rainbows and sunshine but if they keep going, they can succeed.

I am even more confident in myself and my abilities. Starting my own business has taught me so much about myself. Building a brand is hard work but it is rewarding. I truly love Tropsical and I love hearing feedback from clients. Last year, I started with no real idea where it would take me. Late last year, I said I wanted to supply pops for a wedding. Today I can say I have been a part of two lovely weddings. I am excited about the future and the new adventures ahead. So if you are doubting yourself, this is your reminder to cut that out, get focused and believe in yourself! You got this! Whatever dream or goal you are in pursuit of, seek God and know that you are capable. Have a wonderful week and be sure to follow @tropsicalsxm. Now that the phone situation is fixed, my regular posts will resume.

The garden of friendship…

Happy Wednesday! Hopefully this posts before midnight (lol)

I really need to work on a cute intro since this has become regular. I hope this week has met you in good spirits and good health.

It always amazes me how the week’s topic comes to me and I am grateful to God for using me. Today I am staying in the garden. I started this blog to share the lessons I learned while gardening and although the focus shifts from time to time, I find some of my best posts come through my garden epiphanies.

When planting, there are some plants that go well with one another. Native Americans usually plant corn, beans and squash together and it is known as the Three Sisters crop. They plant them together because they benefit each other. Companion gardening or planting is planting crops near each other that either aid each other in pest control, support or any other reason. And that made me think of friendships. Friendships are meant to support and help each other thrive. Through different phases of our lives, our friends can offer us the qualities, support, love and guidance we need in that moment. And other times, we are the friends supplying. Friendships constantly go round and round, like a tire rolling.

A great friendship is balanced with both sides contributing and each person feeling valued. However sometimes we find ourselves in friendships where one person may not feel valued. Honest communication is necessary to ensure that both parties can express their concerns and work through minor issues. It is also perfectly O.K if a friendship has run its course. I believe some people are only meant for a period in our lives. It does not diminish the bond, in fact it can and should enhance it. I won’t stay here too long because this isn’t exactly what I want to talk about.

A friendship should be a learning experience. Learning what the other person likes and needs and also what makes them tick. I can only step in and give a friend what they need, if I actually know what they need. If my friend is feeling low and needs a boost, I need to know what that looks like for them. In addition, a friend teaches you about yourself, the world and life in general. We all have unique experiences. Our perspectives vary from person to person. However, friendships teach us compassion and grace. When we see the amazing beings our friends are, we are able to remind them of that greatness and also support them when needed. Our friends should also do the same for us.

Many times we stay focused on what people are or are not doing for us but we don’t check ourselves to see if we are being good friends to others. It is amazing to receive advice from friends when we need it but it is important that we also check in on those friends. I was complaining about a friend not giving me the attention I wanted and another one was like but I have been asking you for attention and you have been ignoring me. It is normal to fall into that trap. What allows the friendship to overcome it is honest communication and applied effort from both parties. Making an effort to adapt for the friendship to thrive. I have also learned that most friendships do not require as much work as we expect. They do not require spending the entire day together or talking daily. But a quick check in, a cup of coffee or lunch can go a long way. As humans, some of us require face to face interactions and due to Covid, some will suffice with a phone call. Hearing a person’s voice and interacting with them can be a big boost.

Friendships are necessary in our lives because they help us a thrive and the covering of a good friend can save us. There are good people out there offering genuine friendships but in order for you to accept it, you have got to believe it. If you keep looking for negative, you will find it but if you look for positive, you will find it also. Reach out to your friends and check in. A lot of times people are going through things that they feel are not worth troubling friends with. What I have learnt is sometimes we don’t share certain struggles but those same struggles are the ones our friends can help with. So do not be afraid to reach out to your strong friends and check in. There might be something you have to offer, eveni if it is just a listening ear.

3 Things I have learned in 3 months…

Hello beautiful person reading these words! I hope this week has been kind to you and that you are excited for what is to come, whatever it may be. There is a topic that has been weighing heavy on me but I don’t feel like I have it completely figured out yet and there is a lot of emotion behind it so I want to hold off on discussing it.

Life is a continuous learning experience. Every day we learn more about ourselves, the people around us and the world we live in. I signed up for a masterclass about Bible detox and unlearning toxic beliefs. I think it is amazing that we can have these conversations. I won’t get into it too deep but Dr. Dharius Daniels shared a quote from a rabbi: ” For us Jews, studying the Bible is more important than obeying it, because if you don’t understand it rightly you will obey it wrongly and you obedience will be disobedience”. My takeaway from this quote (in a general sense) is that sometimes we may do things and our intentions are good but due to lack of understanding/ information, we may actually do more harm than good. If we have to make a decision about something, but we are not properly informed about the topic, then we could make a decision that we think is good but in reality isn’t. A gentle reminder for us to understand things properly before making a decision that may have us doing the exact opposite of what our intentions were.

Another thing that I have learnt as I journey on this spiritual walk is learning to trust myself. As humans, we can get caught up second guessing ourselves. Sometimes I wonder if what I heard is truly from God or just my own thoughts. Or I may question if I can truly do something. As a recovering people- pleaser, I sometimes question myself if I am doing the right thing. It is important to stop the self- doubt. In the Bible, it says we must hold our thoughts captive. Question those negative thoughts to uncover the origins. Everything you will ever need at any phase in your life is already within you. As you learn to embrace your worth and value, trusting yourself is a big step. Trust that you know what is right for you. And if you have made mistakes in your past, trust that you can overcome them and start anew. We won’t always get it right but that is also part of the learning process. You are free to change and become a new person. If a behavior or mindset is no longer serving us, then we are free to unlearn it and learn a more productive way to deal with things.

Show up. Show up for yourself by speaking up for yourself and doing what is right for you. That is also how you learn to trust yourself. I used to go to the bakery and if they got my order wrong, I would not say anything. But then I stopped that. If I want a coffee, and the lady is trying to do multiple things at a time and gets my order wrong, I will politely correct her. I understand that she is overworked and trying to multi task but I am not honoring myself by accepting something I do not want. You cannot “hurt” yourself to honor someone else. We are all meant to coexist with one another. Your wants and needs are no less than someone else’s. If we interact with respect and love, we would realize that a lot of people are not as offended as we think they will be when we ask for what we want. Please know that everything in this life has a duality. So it is OK for you to speak up for yourself and it is also OK for the other person to speak up for themselves. There may not always be agreement, but it also does not need to end in conflict. Respecting each other’s wishes goes a long way.

There is always a beginning and an end. There will be phases of your life that you wish would end quickly and others that you wish would never end. The same is true for relationships. But there is also a shift within the same relationship or phase where things are altered, so for example, you can have two people who are in conflict with one another and there can be an end to that conflict and simultaneously a beginning of a friendship. There is no ending that does not have a new beginning. Even in death, the end of our physical life is the beginning of something new. There is always something to look forward to. There is always something just around the riverbend. It is up to us to keep the faith and believe that there is something to look forward to. We can keep looking back at what was or we can embrace what is ahead of us. It is like a cycle, we keep learning and growing and evolving.

I hope this made sense to someone else besides me. If it did, please reach out via direct message on IG or shoot me an email through the contact form on the page. Some days I feel like this blog is my personal diary and then someone sends a message and I am reminded that there are people out there reading this as well. Hopefully next week I will be back to my usual Tuesday and can share more of the topic I had. Have a great week and remember, you got this!

Recycled lessons…

It has officially been a year since I started the blog. I read the first two blogs I posted and it is so funny that I am being presented similar scenarios at the moment. If you have not read them yet, take a moment to do so. We currently have curfew which is reminding me of the lockdown from last year. Luckily for us, we were able to be out and about for quite some time and a curfew is still better than a complete lockdown. These past two weeks have been busy and in some areas of my life I am feeling overwhelmed and in other areas, I feel like I am not doing enough.

In the areas where I am feeling overwhelmed, it is really about discipline and obedience. This weekend Tropsical has its first wedding. Last year I prayed for this. I am extremely grateful and excited for the opportunity. I prepared the pops already but there are still a few things I need to sort out and I am dragging my feet. Due to the curfew, my daughter’s recital was rescheduled and although in some ways it makes for an easier day for me, it also puts a spin on my timeline for the wedding. Due to my lack of discipline this week,it will cost me most of my Friday to ensure that all is ready for Saturday. 

Last year I mentioned losing two seedlings due to lack of attention and rushing the process. Today, I hit a pole with my car while parking because I was not being attentive. It is definitely frustrating to have to add bumper repair to my to do list. A moment of lack of attention is costing me financially. Our lack of attention will cost us things but most times we do not know exactly what we are losing. Makes me wonder about the blessings I may have delayed or the persons I may have missed whom I could help. 

On the other hand, there are areas where I am being tough on myself. Rushing to do things will only cause me to make mistakes and not execute correctly. Progress takes time and I need to appreciate the journey. There were some financial goals I wanted to meet and although I am not quite there, I have made a lot of progress. I also have a few opportunities to increase income but I want to do all of the things right away and that simply is not possible. I am trying to simply be grateful for the opportunity without adding any additional expectations at this point. Showing myself grace still feels a bit foreign but I am working on it. 

Summer is coming and the schedule for Tropsical is filling up quickly but then there are the kids home from school. I think I am just panicking instead of relying on my scheduling skills and discipline. I know that I am capable of handling it all. Instead of stressing about what is to come, it is important for me to focus on now and being disciplined enough to do what is necessary for the greater good. So if you are like me and feeling a little overwhelmed,  then know that you are not alone and you got this!

Remember the rules and guidelines you created to live your best life and be disciplined enough to follow through. Also do not forget to take care of yourself. You cannot pour from an empty cup. Have a great week!

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Know it. Protect it. Self- worth!

Growth and healing may appear all light and love especially on social media but for those who are truly doing the work, they can admit it is tough.  Persons who are focused on their growth and healing are focused on understanding themselves, loving themselves and unlearning thoughts and behaviors that no longer serve them. Understanding and working through trauma is a lengthy process. Some of us have had years of programming that cannot be undone overnight. Life is messy and every single person is going through something.

I believe we all have a light within us and when we show up as our authentic selves, that light shines bright. Have you ever looked at someone and they simply seemed to glow? They do not even have to be doing something but their energy calls you. Some of us have had the light dimmed for us and some of us have dimmed it ourselves. Dimming your light might seem like self defense but you are actually harming yourself. When you are not true to who you were meant to be, you start to operate at a lower vibration and you attract at a lower vibration. You start to believe that you are not worthy of certain things. When you play small, you block the opportunities for you to grow.

Self- love helps you to overcome playing small but no one really tells you what to do to love yourself. That is because it is a personal journey. My self-love journey will look different to yours. My self-love love language is nourishing my body. When life gets busy, the first thing I neglect is my body. I do not eat on time, I miss meals, I do not work out and the list goes on. When I am intentional about loving myself, I eat well, I work out and take care of my body so it can help me be my best. Grab a notebook and make note of the things and places that make you feel good. Make a list of affirmations. This can consist of positive statements about yourself that you believe or statements you wish to be true. Repeat the statements to yourself daily. Seek professional help to identify limiting beliefs but also the origin of those limiting beliefs. The foundation usually lies somewhere in childhood.

However there comes a point in our journey where we reach a certain level of confidence in ourselves. We have an understanding of our worth and it’s a beautiful awakening. This is where it gets tricky because you will be tested. You will find yourself in situations that will question your newfound confidence, will question your opinion of yourself and question all that you learned. If we aren’t careful, we can slip back to old patterns. The person you are meant to be is worth fighting for. The journey will take you to new places, shifts in friendships and much more. We cannot control how others choose to see us but we can choose whether we entertain them or not. Keep in mind that most people can only meet you where they are at. If they are vibrating at a lower level, your level will seem unreal to them. Our jobs are not to make others see our worth, it is our job to see it in ourselves and safeguard it.

Our value does not diminish due to someone else’s (and sometimes, our own) inability to see it. Our value is not based on our actions. When we attach our worth to actions, we may find ourselves overextending ourselves. Whereas when we are truly aware of our worth, we understand that less is more. You are worthy of your dreams. That nudge you feel, calling you towards “more” is valid. Release the fear and rise to meet yourself. Do not be afraid to lose others on the journey. Paths were crossed for a reason and we always meet those who are meant to guide us. Wherever you are on your journey, remember to be true to you. We are all imperfect but when we take our broken pieces and mend them, we can make a beautiful mosaic. As always, you got this!

Routine, the constant needed…

Happy Wednesday!

I started writing my blog eager to post yesterday. Had a nice subject and it was coming along nice and then poof, it disappeared. A little over 2 weeks ago, my iPhone officially kicked the bucket. I was sort of ready because I knew it was coming but I was still in denial. I lost pictures and my contacts. Honestly, this is the third time I have lost pictures so you would think I would learn. The loss of contacts is more upsetting. Normally I use my iPhone for everything. I am that friend who makes lists for everything and itineraries for trips. I just like organizing. However, since switching phones, I feel kind of out of place. I am still getting work done although it has been an adjustment.

I feel like the past couple of weeks have been overwhelming. A lot has not happened per se  yet the energy feels heavy. The first week I was very intentional with my day to day activities. I was not procrastinating and pushing myself to get work done. I was even able to work out twice that week. The house was spotless. This past week I feel like nothing has been going my way despite my intentions. My toddler has been testing my patience. Yesterday, I tried to hide from him while he was being fussy but he found me. In the moment when you are irritated, it is hard to understand their feelings. The 5 minute break I did get, allowed me to calm myself so I could deal with him. When something upsets you, it is important to remobe yourself from the situation and take a breath. It also allows some clarity on the situation.

I like routines because they make life smoother, especially with kids. Everyone has a basic overview of what needs to be done and it fosters independence. For this story, what matters most is that a routine is sort of a guideline of your day and for a little over a week, I have shifted from my routine. The daily shifts aren’t such a big deal but the accumulation of shifts is what is causing the heaviness. I created a routine that fits my life and allows me to be as productive as I can to ensure that I meet my goals and allow the kids to be at their best. We put limits on things because too much can be a bad thing. My son was fussy because he was overstimulated the night before because we did not stick to our routine.

The beauty of having a routine is that you already have the guideline to follow. It is all about being intentional and following the steps you created. Sometimes routines do get boring  amd it is absolutely ok for you to shake it up or change it. Ultimately, you will know what works for you. I started gardening again and spending time with my plants is a part of my routine. It does not require a lot of energy at the moment but seeing my plants grow and seeing them bare flowers and fruits is a nice feeling. If you know a certain place or spending time with certain people leaves you drained, then that is something you need to adjust or remove from your routine. You have control over your routine and what you do or do not do. Remember to incorporate breaks so you don’t get bored. In the middle of chaos, it is hard to get a grip of what is happening, it is important to remove yourself and take a look at it from a distance.

This week write down your routine and see what needs adjusting. Review and revise over time until you have something in place that makes you feel good about your days and brings you closer to your dreams. You got this!

Baggage, Spring Cleaning & Balance

After posting about showing up when you do not feel like it, I did not post last week. Life is about
balance. Some days you have to dig deep and show up when you would rather not and some days you need to listen to your body/ soul and do what it needs. Last week I needed a break. It has been an emotional rollercoaster the past month and I feel like I handled it relatively well. But leading up to last Tuesday, a few things happened simultaneously. My phone stopped working. I had a migraine Monday night that had me bedridden. And overall, I just felt spread thin with everything I needed to do. I was going to push to post but then decided not to. And I am glad that I did take a break because by Friday had a 24 hour bug and was miserable. Thankfully there were some aha moments in between.

Bag lady by Erykah Badu was playing and it made me think of the emotional baggage we carry. Our past experiences have taught us certain things and we carry them with us. If we are lucky enough to process some of those experiences, we are able to let them go. But what happens when we are lugging around bags of things that do not serve us? It slows us down, it gets crowded, and we may lose out on other valuable lessons because we have no space. Ideally we want to travel light. Unpacking emotional baggage can be even more chaotic than spring cleaning. You know those times when you are rearranging and you look around and wonder what you got yourself into. Cleaning up is necessary because you realize all of the things you no longer use and can either donate or trash it. Some of our behaviors we hold on to because they protected us in the past but if we take a good look at our lives now, those behaviors are not necessary. Getting rid of the excess baggage lightens our weight and makes space for something new.

A lot of us are praying for things we have not made room for.

Clutter can also negatively impact our moods. Imagine coming home after a busy day and walking into a dirty home. It feels like a weight is dropped on your shoulders. From another standpoint, when we are feeling down, we tend to let the clutter build up a bit. Instead of putting the clothes away the same day, we may leave them an extra day. When you are already feeling bad, it can be tough to do the thing you should. Cameron mentioned once in a short clip for The Alternative that sometimes when we sin, we turn from God instead of going to Him. I think we make a mistake and then we feel bad about it and beat ourselves up. And instead of going to God because we are ashamed for whatever reason, we just let it sit there and then we feel down, we make another bad decision and the “clutter” piles up. If we were to start cleaning up, we would realize that firstly, it is not as big of a mess as we thought and secondly, removing what does not need to be there actually lightens the load on our shoulders. God is patient and understanding, there is no deadline to clean up the mess but the faster you do it, the more time you will spend feeling free.

The thing with baggage and clutter is that sometimes it is easier to notice other people’s stuff but not our own. We all have baggage and we all have some dirt. Sometimes focusing on someone else’s dirt allows us to forget about our mess for a while. The thing is we need to remove the log out of our own eyes before we can talk about the speck in others. (Matthew 7: 3-5) This is also why we should be more considerate. We know how quickly things can progress and we know how it feels not to want to do what is right so when we see someone else struggling, we should encourage them to keep going rather than judge them for struggling. We could always find ourselves in their shoes. So let us be kind to one another and offer a hand where we can, knowing that everything we send out, returns to us.

This week remember to take stock of your baggage and begin spring cleaning. If you have cleaned up then be sure to help someone else who may need it. Have an amazing week and as always, you got this!

Show Up…

For the past few days I have been in an extremely happy mood. Things have been going well and I am grateful. My friend hosted her first makeup workshop and that was a success! I knew from the. Whining that she was capable but I know the stress of event planning as well. She financed everything herself by saving and being focused. The event was well thought out and the decor was amazing. But the highlight was her! She showed up and was not only informative but engaging and fun. She truly stepped into her power and was a sight to behold. Proud is an understatement.

I was also able to work on an event with another friend of mine. She is an event planner and called in some extra hands for a wedding. It was amazing seeing her in her element and really thriving. She has always been creative but there is an ease about her when she is creating. I guess seeing two amazing women doing their thing reminded me to show up for myself as well. I really put in the time with Tropsical this week and was very productive. Part of the battle is just showing up. If there is something that you love doing, just show up. Do what you need to do to get where you want to go.

Another reason why I have been in a good mood is because I feel like I am in a state of flow. Things have been going smoothly. I usually have a pretty packed scheduled but even so things are just falling into place. Saturday I assisted all day at the workshop but I was still able to leave and make Tropsical sales. On Sunday I worked most of the day but still got to spend some quality time with my daughter in the afternoon. So I started the week energized and motivated. And then today happened. It just felt like everything was different. I wasn’t feeling free and excited. I was irritated and then another situation triggered me and I am just over today. I wasn’t even sure if I was going to post anything. But half of the battle is showing up.

This blog was created for me to share my journey. And the truth is the journey won’t always be sunshine and flowers. Some days I will be tested and it’s how I show up that will make the difference. If I am being honest, I reacted out of emotion instead of controlling my emotions but it’s a learning experience. It’s something that I know I need to work on and I have come a long way because generally, I got this but there are a few, really just a few people who know which buttons to push, even though they shouldn’t. So today was different, not bad but different. I also had some wins today and that’s the silver lining. Sold the most Tropsical pops in a day today. 🎉

Life is a balance of highs and lows but since I have committed my life to God, there is a certain ease. Yes I got frustrated today and one situation wasn’t resolved but I know that it’s ok to mess up. Fall down seven times, get up eight. I took notes today and I hope next time I do better at ignoring the triggers. Sales have been increasing and I am just grateful and overwhelmed by the support. My goal is to keep showing up and giving my all and on days when I stumble, to give myself grace. This week be kind to yourself, let go of perfection and show up. You got this!

Because this is a great reminder. Grateful to have being able to show up my friends

There is purpose in everything

It’s amazing how you can plant a seed and not only have a plant but eventually fruits. I know I wrote a blog about bearing fruits already so I won’t focus too much on that. A plant was my inspiration for today’s blog so hence all the plant talk. I think plants have life figured out. Plants simply are. Their only focus is to do what they are supposed to do. Plants produce the basic food for all living organisms and they make oxygen. But they do all of this without a thought or worry. I feel like there is such a natural and easy going flow in nature and animals.

And I know you’re reading this and wondering where I am going with this. Humans are more evolved than animals. As we evolved, it seems we complicated things. Our freedom of choice has made life complicated. Each group thinks their choice is best. We worry about what to consume and how to act. And the possible outcomes are endless. What happened to simplicity? At our cores, who are we? I like to believe that we are beings of love because God is love and we are of God.

Our innate choices should reflect love.

Even if you are unsure of your purpose in life, you should still have an understanding of who you are and what you do. The plant that inspired me was a desert rose. Two lanky stems, maybe ten leaves but the stem was bending from the weight of three flowers. Honestly, if there were no flowers, I would have assumed it was dead. It was just an odd image. Despite looking like it was dead, with no bounty of leaves, the plant was able to fulfill its purpose and bear flowers. Sometimes we think we are bare and have nothing to offer God. But He can perform miracles. All we need is a willing heart. If you feel like you have nothing left to offer Him, offer your heart.

No matter where you find yourself right now, you can make your life better. In a song by Koryn Hawthorne, she sings that there is no place where mercy and grace can’t find her. And it’s so true. No matter what negative thing we label ourselves, God doesn’t see us that way. He extends His mercy and grace always. So today, stop beating yourself up for past mistakes. Know that you can be used for good right where you are and start working towards making better choices. Wake up every day with the intention to do/ be better than you were yesterday. It doesn’t take big moments, it takes a series of small moments to become who you were meant to be. You got this!