It has officially been a year since I started the blog. I read the first two blogs I posted and it is so funny that I am being presented similar scenarios at the moment. If you have not read them yet, take a moment to do so. We currently have curfew which is reminding me of the lockdown from last year. Luckily for us, we were able to be out and about for quite some time and a curfew is still better than a complete lockdown. These past two weeks have been busy and in some areas of my life I am feeling overwhelmed and in other areas, I feel like I am not doing enough.
In the areas where I am feeling overwhelmed, it is really about discipline and obedience. This weekend Tropsical has its first wedding. Last year I prayed for this. I am extremely grateful and excited for the opportunity. I prepared the pops already but there are still a few things I need to sort out and I am dragging my feet. Due to the curfew, my daughter’s recital was rescheduled and although in some ways it makes for an easier day for me, it also puts a spin on my timeline for the wedding. Due to my lack of discipline this week,it will cost me most of my Friday to ensure that all is ready for Saturday.
Last year I mentioned losing two seedlings due to lack of attention and rushing the process. Today, I hit a pole with my car while parking because I was not being attentive. It is definitely frustrating to have to add bumper repair to my to do list. A moment of lack of attention is costing me financially. Our lack of attention will cost us things but most times we do not know exactly what we are losing. Makes me wonder about the blessings I may have delayed or the persons I may have missed whom I could help.
On the other hand, there are areas where I am being tough on myself. Rushing to do things will only cause me to make mistakes and not execute correctly. Progress takes time and I need to appreciate the journey. There were some financial goals I wanted to meet and although I am not quite there, I have made a lot of progress. I also have a few opportunities to increase income but I want to do all of the things right away and that simply is not possible. I am trying to simply be grateful for the opportunity without adding any additional expectations at this point. Showing myself grace still feels a bit foreign but I am working on it.
Summer is coming and the schedule for Tropsical is filling up quickly but then there are the kids home from school. I think I am just panicking instead of relying on my scheduling skills and discipline. I know that I am capable of handling it all. Instead of stressing about what is to come, it is important for me to focus on now and being disciplined enough to do what is necessary for the greater good. So if you are like me and feeling a little overwhelmed, then know that you are not alone and you got this!
Remember the rules and guidelines you created to live your best life and be disciplined enough to follow through. Also do not forget to take care of yourself. You cannot pour from an empty cup. Have a great week!
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